Saturday, June 11, 2005

On Breaking Up

You know, after a couple of more than a month breaks up, nothing's the same. It doesn't matter if the break is friendly or not, and wether you have decided to be friends with your significant other is no factor. You don't talk to eachother, and when you do talk, it's awkward, or you fight. You can't stand it anymore and you just want to tell that guy/girl that you're sorry, but you can't stay friends anymore. But you keep trying to make it work as friends. But it seems that every time you put it together, even if you use superglue, it just falls apart again. And there's nothing you can do about it. Then you find someone new... someone totally great. Your ex gives up, knowing that trying to communicate with you is all in vain. I wish I could say that you and your new guy/girl live happily ever after but that's not the way it works. The cycle of breaking up is just that, a cycle. It continues circling forever.

Thursday, June 09, 2005

First Kiss

Isn't it just funny how these things happen? I mean, first you're doing something TOTALLY innocent with a guy you're crazy about (like skipping down empty halls), and before you know it, you're in an intense moment when it feels like nobody and nothing exists in the world but you and this guy. He's looking into your eyes and you're drowning in his. If he's shy, he'll ask first. And then you find yourself in his arms, your lips pressed to his with absolutely no idea what you're doing, and a fear that you'll screw up. Someone pulls away and you both smile, your breaths taken away by the sweetness and surprise. And even though it's your first time, he tells you you're a great kisser, that he can't even tell it's your first kiss. And you know what? You actually believe him because it's the perfect thing for him to say.

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Big on trust

Those that know me know I need people to trust me in order to trust them. Well, today, one of my best friends (who has a hard time trusting) finally told me he trusted me. This after being friends for four years. I am so happy that he feels that he can tell me something and know that I won't turn against him. Thanks, Charlie...

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Then and Now

Looking back,
I recall that at every formal,
That we both attended,
The last dance has always been ours.
I think not.

I love hearing your strong voice,
Singing your solo.
It gives me chills.
It stung so much,
When you told me to shut up.
I really think you're good.

I know that you have trouble,
Trusting people.
But what I want most,
Is for you to trust me.
I won't hurt you.

I talk to people.
Everyone thinks,
We're going to get together.
Everyone thinks,
We'd make a good couple.
Everyone thinks,
The relationship would last.
We are the only ones,
Who beg to differ.

You said once,
That I hide my feelings well.
You may not know it yet,
But my 7th grade crush,
Well, it's back.