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Sunday, June 04, 2006

Two Days Ago

Two days ago, I found out that I had been cheated on. I had ideas along those lines when he was home, but I didn't say anything because the last time I had talked to him that week was the Saturday when I had a great time with my new boyfriend (back when he wasn't my boyfriend yet. I really couldn't say for sure, but it was the only explanation that I could think of for his dog tags being at her house. But I couldn't prove it.
And then, two days ago, someone who used to be my best friend told me something that tipped me off, said that it was his business to tell me. I asked C.G, or more like told him, "She's pregnant, isn't she." He nodded, confirming my belief that when she called me a whore, she was really just the pot calling the kettle black.
When I returned home, I was so angry. I picked up the phone, dialed his number, and listened to his God-forsaken voice tell me that he was pretty busy and that I should leave a message. Yeah right.
I'd like to think that I was only affected because getting cheated on hurts. It may be that in some small way, I still cared for him. I was almost to the point when I didn't care that he screwed me over. Didn't care that he had, in some small way, cheated... and then I talked to him today.
"When, after you got back, did you start sleeping with her again?"
"Respectively, that's none of your business," he replied, "but I'll tell you because I feel I owe you that much. About two or three days."
Mmm, nice.
"How did you find out anyways?"
"Well, I wouldn't have if a friend hadn't said something to help me figure it out on my own. The reason that I've been trying to call you the past couple of days is to request that you take my number out of your cell phone and never call me again."
"Ouch."
"But I don't think that I'll do that because I'm not as angry as I was. Are you going to marry her?"
"I don't know. We've talked about it but the fact remains that she's very young, and I'm too young, and I still have a job to do." He proceeded to kiss my ass so much after that so much that I can still feel his lips there. I could tell he was trying to get back into my good graces. Then he asked the question that I didn't want him to ask, and didn't know how to answer.
"Why do you care anyways? You have a boyfriend."
I don't know, but I shouldn't.
"Why were you so surprised when I told you that I had another boyfriend?"
"I didn't mean to come off that way. You shouldn't think worse of yourself just because of what I did to you. You're still a princess in my eyes."
"Don't call me that." The other night S.H. tried calling me that and I said the same thing to him, just because that's what he used to call me.
"Okay... look, before things end on a bad note, just let me tell you I still want to talk to you and be your friend, so I'll call you on one of your days off because my mom is on the other line." Pause pause pause. His mother never liked me.
"Well, I'm off everyday this week except for Tuesday, but I won't be around Friday."
"Okay, well, I'll call you sometime this week then."
Whatever, that's what you said shortly before my birthday. Oh well, S.H. is better than you anyways. He might want to get into my pants, but he's a lot more respectful than you and cares about my boundaries more than you, which is why I love him. Maybe.
"Okay, bye."
"Mmm bye."
Ten minutes later: "S.H, don't ever cheat on me."

3 comments:

Kristin said...

being cheated on does suck...even if you do find out about it after the fact. i'm sorry that happened to you, it blows.

as for me...it's not cheating when we're not together O_o ...cuz we're not together right now.

Jeff Crowder said...

Sorry to hear about that. Hopefully it never happens again and hopefully it won't leave you with a sour taste for too long. It's happened to me and the bitterness and hurt goes away after a while. You just have to wait and be positive.

NeverEnough said...

Cheating always hurts, no matter what the circumstance. Sorry...